Thursday, September 23, 2010

Repentance

I have been rude I know that much,
But you behaved too unwell so my behaviour was such,
You may have felt bad although I felt worse,
Chiding you like that for the demeanour you showed,
You desereved less, I gave you bit more,
Of both love & the angst that I showed,
I may say sorry but that won't matter now,
For the past that's gone cannot be brought back anyhow,
I repent in vain but cannot help it,
Wondering how could I say those words to you,
I feel so meaningless & teared within,
Becoming every instant so mindingly thin,
From the heart which wants to run away from my soul now,
As it has sinned to speak so ill of you to you,
What can I do pray give some advice,
So that in your eyes my esteem can again be nice,
Or else I will die thinking it a crime,
Nah, that would be too much at an age so prime,
But I surely will never be able to forget this folly,
Till you say for what I said you forgave me,
Lonely I was before lonely I will ever be,
Since you have turned your head away from me,
Meaning what was not to be meant was too much to say,
For what I have done now I know it's my turn to pay,
Forgive me my dear forgive oh my angel,
I am sunk in heart in mind & in spirit so I just want to say,
I beg of you with my heart please don't continue to play,
So that I may not have to keep repenting for what I did today.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Alone Without You

I am feeling so bored, 
Because you have not roared, 
I am alone without you, 
Whatever others say, it is true, 
That you are my whole world, 
The love has gradually unfurled, 
The solitude I feel, 
Cannot be captured in a reel, 
A purely different feeling I have, 
I cannot express my proper love, 
I acknowledge you for my plight, 
You are my life's light, 
All the people are like nothing, 
The feeling of crowd you only bring, 
I am so lonely, 
I can feel you really, 
In your empty seat, 
Trodden with papers' fleet, 
I see & gently clear them away, 
And keep them safely in a tray, 
Everyone's is shooting very loud, 
If you were here, you would be proud, 
You, with your friends, look so blushy, 
The lawn of adolescence is looking so grassy, 
But going yellow without you, 
You will have to sprinkle some dew, 
To return the greenery somehow, 
Do not think that I want to force you now, 
To bend under my words, 
You are the leopard with strong paws, 
Anything from me you may, 
Ask as I love you way, too much, 
I am so lonely today, 
I wish there wouldn't be any holiday.

Before The Words

The tangled thoughts trotter along, 
They cannot be said through mere words, 
They can only be expressed through the heart, 
Or through eyes which want to see you, 
Your mysterious eyes seem to reveal something, 
I can just touch it but unable to grasp, 
I get dizzy from your sweet face, 
The sharp features can be clearly seen, 
Enough to make anyone your courter, 
Who is madly in love with you, 
When I see you, my world is illuminated, 
But your absence renders me feel scared, 
From the very fear haunting me, 
Lest you should become someone else's, 
You look so unknown to me, 
Yet so known for years it seems, 
I keep groping in the darkness, 
Lost in a way with many directions, 
A different dimension altogether, 
In the world of true love, 
My selfless love you can very well understand, 
As that is why I love you with all I have, 
Because a golden girl like you, 
Can never ever be loved less, 
However she wants to avert her gaze, 
When she has thrown me in a maze, 
I am hurt by cupid's arrow, 
Only you can diminish my sorrow, 
The girl who is more beautiful than the moon, 
Who can be more mesmerizing than a flute, 
Is none else but only you, 
I want to say that I really LOVE YOU.

Beginning of New Love

I cannot say how much you are sweet, 
In beauty everyone you can beat, 
The shining black hair of your, 
Makes my love even more pure, 
What you think about me, I am not sure, 
But all I know is that you are my cure, 
Your skin is not so fair, 
Still your looks are quite rare, 
I remained blind for long, 
Then one day I heard your song, 
And realized later that you were just talking, 
In a voice more melodious than a nightingale, 
I have long before forgotten my past crush, 
But still then, I have not proceeded much, 
In convincing you that I am no more, 
In love with that girl, it is now a thing of yore, 
I did not understand too, 
But I have started loving you, 
Many days of waiting lies ahead of me, 
But I know that patience is the key, 
To win your heart and love you, 
And control the bull of Taurus within you, 
With your decent look and pleasing nature, 
You make your company a real pleasure, 
Now I am just a friend of your, 
And that too, I am not sure, 
But I am determined too, 
To make a new relation with you, 
Towards the first goal I have started, 
That is to become your good friend, 
And then only can I think, 
Of some day giving you a wink, 
I wait for the day for you to find the link, 
When the sun will rise & darkness will sink.

Don't Leave

You are alone, on your own, 
When I saw you first, love's seeds were sown,
But when you ignored me, my world was mown, 
Out of your world, I was thrown, 
Better than seeing you with someone unknown, 
To the sky, we be flown, 
Why, when you see me you groan? 
Without you I will die, I am so prone, 
To your sight, & you are grown, 
None of your qualities are in need to hone, 
In anguish & helpless, I moan, 
When anyone else hears your sweet tone, 
The whole of me, you own, 
This by the world is known, 
One day you will be gone, 
Then again that will be end of dawn, 
Be with me, forget what I have done, 
Make a laughter, from your frown, 
The day is so much lovely and brown, 
I wish from being unreachable, to me you would come down.

Everyone Is studying

All are reading something, 
I am reading nothing, 
Just writing poems for you, 
For no one else, only for you, 
The urge to scribble comes from inside, 
I keep all other things beside, 
So instead of studying hard, 
I sit & play card, 
I can study if I want to, 
But I choose to see you, 
I do not care what others do, 
Only about what you do, 
All the books are useless, 
I must throw them unless, 
They can win your heart, 
I have loved you since birth, 
You do not need to study, 
Because you were very steady, 
Whole of the year, 
So you have no need to fear, 
But I have reasons of my own, 
Which are not unknown, 
All are prepared for the test, 
I keep sitting & hope for the best.

Everywhere I go

I go to school, I go to house, 
But Alas! There's no spouse, 
Waiting eagerly for me, 
To serve me some tea, 
I go to swim, I go to study, 
But after my day when I am muddy, 
There's no one for me, 
To ask me how I hurt myself so badly, 
Everywhere I go, I miss your essence, 
Sometimes I think, what nonsense? 
Then you come again in my dream, 
Hindering all my thought's stream, 
At every place, I wish your feet to be with me, 
And spend time with you, very skillfully, 
Your smell mesmerizes me so, 
That endlessly in your love I begin to flow, 
Without any direction, I wonder through all day, 
In my mind, you always stay, 
Following me in all circumstance, 
You play with me, so many pranks, 
I look at the sky, & with a sigh, 
Wondering when you will be mine.

Falling In Love, Again

After forgetting the girl I loved before, 
I had decided I will fall in love no more, 
But alas, I have broken my resolution, 
And unknowingly drunk cupid's solution, 
I fell in love with you more, 
Much more than I loved anyone before, 
I want to start a new beginning, 
Out of joy, so I am singing, 
Hints of my love I have started giving, 
The love which was buried is now reviving, 
I can't control now anymore, 
Without you, I am getting sore, 
I miss you with my every breath, 
Every moment I am being reduced to wreath, 
The experience feels wholly new, 
While falling in love with you, 
So sweet, so gentle, and then too strong, 
For you, I cannot wait much long, 
Still over a month lies ahead of me, 
To check whether we have a destiny, 
Which I reckon is already written, 
What left now is only to be beaten, 
By the mighty bull in you, 
Whereas I am a small cat who mews, 
I repent not being friendly before, 
But what could I do, I could no more, 
Try to be overly frank, 
In your love, I am fully sunk, 
The feeling of love, 
Is like a flying dove, 
Uncontrollable but yet then tender, 
Flying without reign and also slender, 
I try in vain to pursue a different course, 
In the struggle my voice becomes hoarse, 
And I openly begin to cry, 
Till my tears become dry, 
I am so lucky to get you by my side, 
The consolation of you being beside, 
Is for me quite more than enough, 
To again madly fall in love.

Figures & Numbers

Today is the math's exam, 
Due to which many cram, I have learnt all the figures, So that I can face the tigers, In the battle of numbers, The prizes are ambers, I have prepared well, But you are prepared like hell, I cannot compete you anyway, The figures & numbers are enjoying their way, The world is now digital, There are very few petal, But thanks to god you are the one, Wait a second, I am not done, I still have to tell, Why before you I knel, You I saw as infinity, And that too with full symmetry, The highest of all, Than the Niagara fall, The relation of our, Is quite sour, Because it is not a function, It's only my love's junction, I will keep trying, In spite of all the wrying, To know why I am crying, I am really not trying, The numbers are all against me, The odds are my destiny, We revolve round the number, From VIPs to plumber, I wish you all the best, Free from all pest, I will save you from the bombers, There will be only figures & numbers.

Forgive Me

I did not want to make you sad, 
And doing it has made me feel bad, 
I cannot express how much I repent, 
For the words that day I sent, 
Straining our sweet friendship, 
Some altercation can always creep, 
But I am really sorry for all, 
I promise I will never again befall, 
The trust you have in me, 
By saying things which are empty, 
I want my lovely friend back, 
I know many virtues I lack, 
But that does not stop you from forgiving me, 
At least for me you can show some mercy, 
I will never argue relentlessly again, 
I have said it clear & plain, 
Your anger is no doubt right, 
For it was me who began the fight, 
But mistakes are forgotten when repented, 
As much as I could, I have hinted, 
That I am sorry from heart, 
I did not want you to be hurt, 
This is all I can do, 
The rest is all upto you, 
Let me know if I have succeded, 
In having you anger receded, 
And in case the answer is yes, 
Just give me a wide smile, 
And I know it cannot be no, 
Because you are very sweet & nice.

I Can Only Hope

Nothing is in my hands, 
Only time is taking the hours' hands, 
I keep looking around, 
Concentrating on a random sound, 
Hoping it may be your footstep, 
But every time I hallucinate, 
Your temper never allows, 
So that you can browse, 
The feeling of my heart, 
Or the wrinkles of my shirt, 
Being optimistic is tough, 
And that is not enough, 
To make the hope come true, 
Which inside me grew, 
I can only hope you will know, 
How much I love you, 
And come to know my life, 
You can demolish my strife, 
The ray of hope I can find, 
Prevents me from going blind, 
Hoping all the way through, 
Every gloom I threw, 
You come & make me happy, 
So that my life gets shapy, 
You may be in America, or in Europe, 
The only way is to hope.

I Cannot Forget You

Everyone keeps telling me, 
I should not expect any ceremony, 
To be celebrated with you, 
Because I cannot get you, 
So I shouldn't think of any valentine, 
You have broken all my vine, 
But I cannot forget my love, 
I love you more than enough, 
Your face I see everywhere, 
When I am asleep, or in a fair, 
About you I very much care, 
My love I cannot share, 
I can give you love infinite, 
Making your day too bright, 
Tomorrow you could be my mate, 
If it would not be for fate, 
Forgetting you is impossible, 
The love of yours is a fable, 
I will listen to no one, 
Whatever may say anyone, 
Only my opinion I will follow, 
As I am on my solo, 
I didn't want to make a brawl, 
In the net, I love you overall, 
I cannot even ignore you, 
Let alone hate you, 
My friends discourage me, 
That you won't be my destiny, 
I am not the one who can forget so easily, 
The girl I love so madly, 
I will never leave you, 
So much I love you, 
Others may continue, 
I will try to undo, 
I have done what I should not do, 
That's why I cannot forget you.

I Miss You So

When you aren't there I miss you so,
I suffer several blow,
You hide you face behind the paper,
I know I am not so good to favour,
Between us so many come,
I can only see glances of you some,
You are now not here,
But I miss you everywhere,
You made an excuse to get away,
I watched in vain as your image went gray,
I wish I could be with you,
But compared to me, you are so shrew,
You want before I could stop,
My plan went totally flop,
I am nothing without you,
In your absence no sapling grew,
The result of my love was blank,
It is now lying on a thin plank,
If you move a bit,
It may fall through the slit,
Or it may come in the land,
Falling in your safe hand,
You are in class, then you see me,
And ask someone to close the door, if she is free,
I am hurt from inside,
All what you want I will abide,
The distance between us keeps growing,
The potion of love keeps flowing,
You look towards left & right,
Giving me a hell of fright,
With you I want to go,
Oh I miss you so.

I Say Now

Someday I will have to reveal,
Which till now I had to veil,
Which deep in myself I nurture,
Which is like a sweet torture,
Many times the voice rises inside,
But sadly what it says I cannot abide,
With the greatest effort I bury it,
Just for a very short time,
Until it rises again,
Giving me even more pain,
The voice is of my heart,
It says that it loves you,
And I don’t care what it says,
Because I believe hard work always pays,
So if I am loyal and true,
My voice will surely be heard by you,
The reason I write this is that only,
For I think I can bear no more,
If I cannot say,
My life will surely turn gray,
The time has come,
The time will go,
I was with you,
I will be with you,
As long as you know,
That I love you,
And want you to accept me,
As a partner in your destiny,
If you reject me,
I will at least be a friend truly,
I hope that moment never comes,
As our relation can be more than friendship.

I Will Be Waiting For You

I have thought over & over again, 
There's nothing in you, a girl so plain, 
Yet there're some rare qualities, 
Due to which we are enemies, 
You never liked me, 
Maybe that was destiny, 
But I will wait for you, 
Till you say yes or no, 
An answer you will have to give, 
With you I want to live, 
I won't stand out of your path, 
Even if me you swat, 
I am ready to face you straight, 
I can succeed, I have that faith, 
Day & night, out of your house I will stand, 
Will you lend me a helping hand? 
Perhaps not, but I will adjust, 
Till I prove that I am just, 
The bundles of love I shot, 
Was thrown by you on the spot, 
You have signaled to forget, 
But if I will, I will regret, 
My love is quite poor, 
But still strong, I am sure, 
I won't watch you with someone, 
If I do, I will eat venom, 
You should've told me straight, 
Liking a boy isn't your trait, 
You misunderstood what I said, 
For that a large cost I have paid, 
That's your love, my love! 
The seeds of anger, I will scrub, 
I will change only for you, 
Just keep in mind, words a few, 
From morning to night, to dawn's dew, 
Always remember, I will be waiting for you.

I Wish I Could

I wish I could propose you, 
I wish I could surprise you, 
The windy day marked my way, 
Unnoticed in your path I lay, 
I am going to return, 
With you to a bushy fern, 
The fear is my life's thorn, 
More lethal than a buffalo's horn, 
You are so jolly today, 
The sun is showering all its rays, 
I don't know why I am afraid, 
After all that you have said, 
You do not speak, 
I wish I could be quick, 
Hopeless I had become, 
Along with anger some, 
But then your look melted it all, 
From the stairs of love, I was pressured to fall, 
I should not tell anymore, 
But everyone says, Encore, 
I wish I could say it now, 
Melting your heart somehow, 
So many desires burn in my heart, 
I failed to acquire the loving art, 
Then madness descended upon me, 
I wish I could make a melody, 
Every wish of mine points to you, 
Those can only be quenched by you, 
Overall there is only one wish, 
That we eat together from the same dish.