The End

I always hoped for something to be good,
When I knew hope I never should,
But in the end, everything will be alright,
Was all my heart said to my mind all night,
When it kept thinking of her in its lonely ways,
For God knows so how many days.

But in the end, it didn't turn out to be alright,
All I got was a reason to pity my plight,
When I realized she could never be mine,
Like a sun on my cold life she would never shine,
She only said a few words to me,
Which changed the face of my whole destiny.

What she said was neither too bad,
Nor, obviously, I was too glad,
She was just as indifferent as she could be,
All she said was that she would never love me,
As coolly and calmly as one could be,
Because she never saw the fire she ignited in me.

It was the end, I could clearly see,
Not only of my love, but the end of me,
Now I am just nothing just a breathing corpse,
Unable to do anything in the world but remorse,
But still somewhere around a new hopes lay,
That I will live again one bright day.

Till that day comes, I cease to live,
For all my life any happiness I couldn't give,
Not just to anyone else, not to even me,
My life feels depleted and devastated so dimly,
I can never stand again until I can love again,
I just lie here with my eternal pain.

The Truth

The truth should have dawned upon me long ago,
Having realized this now will make me always know,
And bear the fact in my mind that wherever I may fall,
None else but me will have to be responsible for it all,
Kneading with all my soul I have been cherishing my love,
Showing how much proud I was to share with all my love,
And now I have got no more glee within me,
Love has finally shown me my disdainful destiny,
Of sorrow, of gloom and of an ignominious darkness,
Tomorrow I know will be even more hopeless,
Really because, my love, I have always been a little careless,
And sure enough, my life too has got reckless,
Crying now I can see that in my life nothing matters,
Heartless in this vast meadow my soul lies in tatters,
In the nocturnal beauty of my ardours dilapidated,
Truth has now accordingly everything stated,
As cruelly as it can, it has had me devastated,
And now will remain nothing but my penance with me & my life together,
For eternity, I will lie in this dark valley, crying forever.

Soulless

The day I I finally came,
Was like the very day or maybe the same,
When I had to go away lonely,
Without any prologue just so suddenly,
I can now feel the power surging, binded for years within me,
The strength rising steadily, a water drop turning into sea,
Gradually it unfolds like a bouldered path under the sun,
But it does so, and that's enough for me to want,
As I had tried hard to let go yet clutched the soul like a prey,
For I had lost my soul when you had gone away that day.

And destiny took its final toll on me,
If at all it could be called my destiny,
Because it was just me who had lost everything in the light,
And didn't even try to put up a good fight,
The water splurged, the earth erupted, and I was left desolate,
I felt myself being crumpled under my own weight,
In devastation burned everything, the remains unalterable forever,
Without you, since that moment I was able to live never,
Something beyond death happened to me on that day,
For I had lost my soul when you had gone away that day.

I awaited salvation, and have won it at last,
But don't know why my memories keep haunting me from the past,
Maybe I need something more than just freedom,
Something more than all the fortunes of the kingdom,
Something like my soul which I can find no more,
Finding which in a new rising I will really adore,
I wait, just wait for this eternal cycle to end,
And a new day a new beginning God will surely send,
Whence I shall realize a new kind of today,
For I had lost my soul when you had gone away that day .