My Heart For You

When I have nothing to do, yet the mind feels new,
I sit down with a quill, and scribble out my heart for you,
The wind passes by fiercely, like the breath of the Gods,
But I can never move, for I am immersed in your thoughts,
The water rises over me, devouring me in my whole,
Still I sit here writing, loving you with all my soul,
The fire burns me into ashes, leaving just my heart,
The love for you though, it can never from it tear apart,
These words might seem meaningless, for you love me not,
For me yet, these are gold, costlier than the earth,
Heavier then the sea, mightier than the glow,
Residing in my hovel of love, each letters embedded in snow,
Maybe one day you will know, the plight I am in this place,
With my heart lost to you, and nothing to give me solace,
I cry each day, for the distress you unknowingly give,
With tears flowing down, each letters here I weave,
Still there exists a feeling of joy, an aura of hope, a speck of glee,
That maybe I will know you more some day, just maybe, you will be destiny,
But as of now, the same story round and round,
The love for you everyday strengthened and found,
With this I go now, to return another day,
For the wind, the water, and the fire to make way.

Decide Now

Many times we want to do something and end up doing another. There's many reason that this happens. Sometimes it's peer pressure, parents, or sometimes it's pure hesitation, what will they think?? Is it right?? Who am I to do this?? And this type of low self esteemed thinking, according to me, is the best cause for the worst things happening to someone, either in the materialistic or in the spiritual world.

Making a decision is important, and it's equally important to stick to it. We most of the time take a decision, and bury it within our hearts. A very bad thing to do. When you decide on a thing, follow it, whatever others may think. You think, you do, what others say don't matter at all, so to hell with them. Got it??

Now, another thing is that we worry if we end up being in a worse position from where we started if we follow our heart. No need to worry about that. If that happens, it will be solely due to your decision, and you cannot blame anyone else. Instead, you will learn to improve next time and think something better or more suitable. So think about it today, and do it now, keeping no one in account but your heart and mind. Think about what others think, and you will be helping others to achieve their goal, not yourself. Do it, NOW....

For they say, a bad decision today, is better than a good decision tomorrow......

Live Today

We are happy today, for a moment of glee,
Forgetting tomorrow, change will be our destiny,
We might be better, we might be lost,
But tomorrow is to reveal that, so why not live today,
With no fear, no worries, no need of any kind,
Just a smile, and with all we have,
Be naive, relax, the world ends not today,
We have worried till date, so what has it given except cries?

You were born with tears, then joy swooped down,
But as you grew up it was swallowed,
By the dark times in your mind,
For the perspective matters, there's nothing like bad,
But how can you believe that, when you were taught else,
Since birth, since the tears, since the lost joy descended?

You thought you were everything,
Your demands were the sole,
But elders taught you better,
And think about all,
Alas, it's true, you should do for others too,
But didn't they teach you, that you are something too?

We must learn to live today,
Before trying to think whether we will die t'morrow,
The change is what is needed, not in the  world,
But in us, our mind, our soul, in we,
Fail we may, try again,
For isn't living today in hell, better than tomorrow's dream of Heaven?

Dream 12th July

Yesterday I had an interesting dream. I dreamed that my college had reopened(it's opening on 21st), but only about 4 or 5 students of my class had come on the first day!!! And they too were whining about having to come. That's weird, because in reality most of the about 60 students in my class like to come regularly. Anyways, then I saw there was a test to be conducted a week after. Everyone got so tensed. It's a different feeling in your dream. You feel that you are flying, and there are no worries, even in the tensest of moments.But there was a good news. Students of Science courses had been exempted because there wasn't much time for us to prepare our syllabus. I was so happy.

Then my dream transitioned to a place near my old School, in front of Iskon Temple in Kailash Hills. I saw a group of bullies approaching me, and they tried to provoke me into a fight. But instead of being enraged, I tackled them diplomatically and made my way out. Pretty much consistent with my actual nature(hell yes, it was me dreaming right?). Then while walking, you know the feeling, flying away, and put on another place.

Well, after many many months, I saw someone in my dream, an old friend(:D :D you got it right). She was standing a bit distant. I could see her, but she couldn't see or hear me. So gloomily, I made my way back through a path which had sprang right next to me. And in the end of that was a nice cafe, with white tables and chairs, like in parks, outside, and near one of them was my friend standing, smiling to me. Then it all went black.

Then I woke up. An hour before.

The Unknown Feeling

I want to clear one thing first. This unknown feeling is no way about that damn love. I understand when I'm in love pretty well. So get rid of your misconceptions this moment only if you have.

Now, I don't really understand(obvious from the topic), I mean, I had had nothing to do much in these holidays, and so, as with everyone else, I did get bored. But simultaneously, I had some strange sensations. Something was changing. Some thingS were changing. I didn't understand what, haven't. But still, something is. Hope I will reveal myself to me soon. Till then, I am just left wondering, why I have been feeling so different these days??

A Note About Life

In this world, most of us care too much about too many things, uselessly. We think about people for whom we don't matter, we think about what others think although they aren't thinking about us at all, and we are always worrying about what happened and what may happen, forgetting the present. Instead of being practical, we think that we are the center of the universe & that everyone is completely obsessed with what we do & say. This is obviously not true, but we fail to understand that, mostly, believing that our lives of the past or future is worth more than the present. I don't know whether it is. And I don't even care, because we must always live in the present.

Lamenting about the past cannot change it. Instead, it helps us if we learn from past mistakes and don't repeat them again. Similarly, speculating wildly & illogically about the future is also isn't worth it, because what happens is bound to happen. Everything which happens in the future is a result of everything happened in the past or the present. The first thing, the past we simply can't change, fullstop. No use thinking about it anymore.

But the present is all upto us. And in the present also, there isn't many things under our control. You can't control whether it's going to rain today, can you?? But definitely the rain will affect the traffic to your work or college or school tomorrow. You understand what I'm getting at?? So, in the present too, the only things we can control is ourselves, namely, our Actions, Words, and Thoughts. These three things are the only responses that we can give to any situation, and when the response is right, the result desired is automatically got. For example, if it rains today, although you can't stop it, you can ensure that you have an umbrella if you go out today, and you leave the house earlier tomorrow in case the rain has lashed some trees on the roads or dug up some holes blocking the way. Whatever happens to you, therefore, is & will be the result of your own actions and words, so never blame others for anything.

We must always live according to what we want, not according to what others want, but sadly, very few of us actually do so. And if we make blunders or fail, the blame is also only on us. Not on God, not on our friends, not on our parents, just us. It's your life. You were in control. You messed up. But it's surely not the end. You can try again. You can succeed. Learn from your mistakes, learn from others, do it your ways, and see which method works to get your desired result. It's all in the hands of what you think, what you say, what you do.

But we have grown up believing that the world thinks about us, so we do things keeping the world in mind, keeping everything in mind, except ourselves, our gain, our loss, our practical aspect of any action. We seldom think before speaking or doing anything, which results in wrong actions, hurting ourselves and others. If you take care of yourself, everyone will be taken care of accordingly. So, don't worry about what others think & want. Worry about what you think & want. Take care of what you do carefully, for as they say, you take care of the small things, and the big things come into place themselves...