Inspired

Today I was sitting in college(gloomy as usual) & suddenly got inspired by seeing some birds flying outside through the window... Watched them for an hour & wrote this...

The way they fly,
The way they glide,
The way they sway,
In the heat of May,
The way they soar,
Worth encore,
The way they are free,
Wish I too could be...

I want to be like them,
I can truly be me,
I can reach the zenith,
Mingle with my destiny,
Like the denizens of the sky,
I can reach the clouds,
I can untangle my soul,
From this wretched world so loud,
And fly away placidly in solitude...

So take me oh take me to the heavens above,
Where I can silently merge with those angels of God,
Flying alone in swarms vast for eternity,
Take me oh take me to the heavens of almighty,
Where I will be free at last, like the birds I see...

Embracing Insanity

For a moment I find myself surrounded by blindness,
All black where nothing can ever be deciphered,
I realize moments later, that moments in this world last forever,
Where you can never let go of the laughs and your sobs will never be heard,
However you may cry, however you may try,
No one will listen to what you say, as long as you are true from heart,
People here just know how to laugh,
To laugh at other's strife, to laugh at other's smile,
They just don't know when to stop and take a breath,
They have only learnt to deny each other the value of their own existence,
They populate the empty world, like weeds growing endless,
And their world, the world loses itself gradually to me,
Gracing me with it's essential presence so lethal,
Madness of a few moments soon becomes destiny,
I find peace to be insane, oh my, sanity is so brutal,
Lethal, and heart tearing, crushing all that exists today,
But when I am mad, no one can blame me, I do anything,
And will be lost just by stupid laughs from stupider people,
Obviously oblivious to the world around,
Who think themselves as clever as much insane they are,
And end up laughing at me going insane,
When they should laugh at themselves for mad they are too,
To live in that world by my side, where I am happier embracing insanity.

The Name

Kindly don't deny me a glimpse of you,

Azure you are, sweeter than even the dew,
Jest I not, love you I really do,
After all, or else I wouldn't be writing this for you,
Rear you my senses, within the deep of your eyes,
I can feel my desires surging, for you only they rise,
Seeing my plight even my soul makes fun of me,
Envy I him who would be tangled with your destiny,
No one is that I hope, except only me,
Great feats for I can decline to make you be with me,
Useless my love is, because I can't tell you my feelings yet,
Portray I may them though now, before it becomes too late,
Time is running fast, and if you become mine,
Ask yourself, you will know how much it will be divine,
Instead of being just friends, so much more we can be,
Living together for us, and to make a new history,
Or maybe just be with each other forever,
Visions are endless you know, to get tarnished never,
Every inside of mine yells to you in vain,
You still never did, and maybe never will understand my pain,
Over my heart through my eyes only my friendship you always see,
Under my skin, beneath my soul, one day you also will feel my heart's melody.

Aimless Life

Nothing to write. Actually that's not true.. Nothing to write which will interest you, is better. But that's an assumption, and it's often(if not always) dangerous to assume. You might be interested in what I have to say after all, or else you wouldn't still be reading this.(this is also assumed, so better stop fretting about your interest and read what I have to say anyways).
So where was I? Oh yeah, I hadn't even begun. What I wanted to write today is... is... God... this is tough. You think you have so much to say. Then you sit to write, and you can;t write anything at all because everything, every feeling, just refuse to come out. Incredible!! I really owe an apology for not writing anything worthwhile at all till now. But I won't be dishonest. So listen, I assure you that whatever follows will not be of any use to you whatsoever, I recommend you stop reading this now rather than being angry on me for writing nothing in the end.
Still I am writing this. You know why? Because I believe that at least one of you out there will be glad to read my feelings, just because I have chosen to share them instead of silently burying them in my heart.And here it begins: what begins? This isn't the start of a story. It's thought. And thoughts neither ever begin nor end.So I will just type whatever is in my mind right now.
What is the aim of my life?? I know you must be wondering why there's a question mark in the end. I myself wonder too. I mean, I ought to know what's my aim. Okay, forget life. What is my aim for tomorrow atleast?? Do I know?? Sadly, I don't. Or maybe I do, deep in the realm of the subconscious mind, but I haven't realized it yet. Whatever that is supposed to mean, the epitome is that I don't know what I want from life tomorrow. I don't know what I want to happen so that I will be content that even though a day in my life was lessened, I gained something. But even if I myself don't know my wishes, how can I expect the almighty to fulfill them? So I am going to sit(or lie) and think about it for a while, what I want to happen tomorrow. In vivid detail. For they say, imagination and visualization can make the universe biased to your good luck. Such is the power of thinking. So bye for now.
NOTE: It's been about two hours since I typed this in my phone, and now after a lot of thought, I have a somewhat vague(yet vague is better than nothing) picture of the perfect & ideal tomorrow in my mind. Sorry but I can't share that yet. It's detailed, it's long, and it's part of my personal life(although that's a flimsy excuse, I always share everything with my friends). So Good Night. Let's see how the real day works out tomorrow compared to my imagined one.

Smile Even If You Don't Have A Reason

Sometimes you can't laugh, just wander in the rain,
Sometimes your tears flow endlessly again and again,
Life makes you fall, so cruelly & harshly.
Still you have to get up, bearing all so roughly,
For life has ups and downs, like nature's various seasons,
But you can smile with me now even if you don't have a reason.

Cheerful you want to be, but opposite is your plight,
You want to be hopeful, but the future doesn't look bright,
You wish that you could laugh a bit, but can't for sadness has creeped,
For till today, everyday, each day of life, only gloom you have reaped,
Because life has ups and downs, like nature's various seasons,
Still you can smile with me now even if you don't have a reason.

Nights come, followed by days, followed by nights again,
You wonder when this life will end, you will get peace some plain,
Your heart is now wretched, it beats for no reason,
Every single time it has loved, it has got nothing only treason,
But you should know life has ups and downs, like nature's various seasons,
So come smile with me now even if you don't have a reason.

Tomorrow maybe ugly, but so may be today, and if you think truly, so was yesterday,
Now believe what I say dear, I lie not to you,
Everyday, you are no doubt going to get difficulties new,
So forget the old ones, there are many more always in queue,
Just remember your life always has ups and downs, like nature's various seasons,
Still you can always smile with me even if you don't have a reason.

Yes, sadly, sadness never ends, but so doesn't hope,
In every tough road God puts you through, just give a smile and cope,
If the goal is unattained, it may be a while,
But it will surely come, so just give a smile,
For life has ups and downs, like nature's various seasons,
So just smile with me now even if you don't have a reason.

Blank Spaces

Emptiness, filling all the space within me,
Feeling hollow, yet no space left to cry,
Every time, I thought, she can't be mine,
Still every time, in vain, I gave it a try,
And every time, my heart, got broken apart,
We were thrown afar, and my love had a new start,
Again and again, the story repeated,
I tried to smile, but the tears were dearer,
Whenever I felt joy come nearer,
The darkness swept over, engulfing all the joys,
Leaving grief, for me to bear alone,
Without having anyone by my side, ever till today,
I stare at the sky, chiding myself for the love,
Which I know I deserve, but which is still undeserved,
This will go on as long, as I keep writing today,
Whatever happens, I won't stop now,
For the blank between each space,
Residing between my words, take me to her,
As I keep writing everyday, she refuses,
To accept me, and I am thrown away, this time alone,
For despondency, slow but steady, keeps paving its way,
Trying to fill the blank spaces, existing within the words,
Still I try to shake it all, and continue on my journey,
To erase all gloom from the spaces, and fill the blank in my life with love...