Repentance

I have been rude I know that much,
But you behaved too unwell so my behaviour was such,
You may have felt bad although I felt worse,
Chiding you like that for the demeanour you showed,
You desereved less, I gave you bit more,
Of both love & the angst that I showed,
I may say sorry but that won't matter now,
For the past that's gone cannot be brought back anyhow,
I repent in vain but cannot help it,
Wondering how could I say those words to you,
I feel so meaningless & teared within,
Becoming every instant so mindingly thin,
From the heart which wants to run away from my soul now,
As it has sinned to speak so ill of you to you,
What can I do pray give some advice,
So that in your eyes my esteem can again be nice,
Or else I will die thinking it a crime,
Nah, that would be too much at an age so prime,
But I surely will never be able to forget this folly,
Till you say for what I said you forgave me,
Lonely I was before lonely I will ever be,
Since you have turned your head away from me,
Meaning what was not to be meant was too much to say,
For what I have done now I know it's my turn to pay,
Forgive me my dear forgive oh my angel,
I am sunk in heart in mind & in spirit so I just want to say,
I beg of you with my heart please don't continue to play,
So that I may not have to keep repenting for what I did today.

Alone Without You

I am feeling so bored, 
Because you have not roared, 
I am alone without you, 
Whatever others say, it is true, 
That you are my whole world, 
The love has gradually unfurled, 
The solitude I feel, 
Cannot be captured in a reel, 
A purely different feeling I have, 
I cannot express my proper love, 
I acknowledge you for my plight, 
You are my life's light, 
All the people are like nothing, 
The feeling of crowd you only bring, 
I am so lonely, 
I can feel you really, 
In your empty seat, 
Trodden with papers' fleet, 
I see & gently clear them away, 
And keep them safely in a tray, 
Everyone's is shooting very loud, 
If you were here, you would be proud, 
You, with your friends, look so blushy, 
The lawn of adolescence is looking so grassy, 
But going yellow without you, 
You will have to sprinkle some dew, 
To return the greenery somehow, 
Do not think that I want to force you now, 
To bend under my words, 
You are the leopard with strong paws, 
Anything from me you may, 
Ask as I love you way, too much, 
I am so lonely today, 
I wish there wouldn't be any holiday.

Before The Words

The tangled thoughts trotter along, 
They cannot be said through mere words, 
They can only be expressed through the heart, 
Or through eyes which want to see you, 
Your mysterious eyes seem to reveal something, 
I can just touch it but unable to grasp, 
I get dizzy from your sweet face, 
The sharp features can be clearly seen, 
Enough to make anyone your courter, 
Who is madly in love with you, 
When I see you, my world is illuminated, 
But your absence renders me feel scared, 
From the very fear haunting me, 
Lest you should become someone else's, 
You look so unknown to me, 
Yet so known for years it seems, 
I keep groping in the darkness, 
Lost in a way with many directions, 
A different dimension altogether, 
In the world of true love, 
My selfless love you can very well understand, 
As that is why I love you with all I have, 
Because a golden girl like you, 
Can never ever be loved less, 
However she wants to avert her gaze, 
When she has thrown me in a maze, 
I am hurt by cupid's arrow, 
Only you can diminish my sorrow, 
The girl who is more beautiful than the moon, 
Who can be more mesmerizing than a flute, 
Is none else but only you, 
I want to say that I really LOVE YOU.

Beginning of New Love

I cannot say how much you are sweet, 
In beauty everyone you can beat, 
The shining black hair of your, 
Makes my love even more pure, 
What you think about me, I am not sure, 
But all I know is that you are my cure, 
Your skin is not so fair, 
Still your looks are quite rare, 
I remained blind for long, 
Then one day I heard your song, 
And realized later that you were just talking, 
In a voice more melodious than a nightingale, 
I have long before forgotten my past crush, 
But still then, I have not proceeded much, 
In convincing you that I am no more, 
In love with that girl, it is now a thing of yore, 
I did not understand too, 
But I have started loving you, 
Many days of waiting lies ahead of me, 
But I know that patience is the key, 
To win your heart and love you, 
And control the bull of Taurus within you, 
With your decent look and pleasing nature, 
You make your company a real pleasure, 
Now I am just a friend of your, 
And that too, I am not sure, 
But I am determined too, 
To make a new relation with you, 
Towards the first goal I have started, 
That is to become your good friend, 
And then only can I think, 
Of some day giving you a wink, 
I wait for the day for you to find the link, 
When the sun will rise & darkness will sink.

Don't Leave

You are alone, on your own, 
When I saw you first, love's seeds were sown,
But when you ignored me, my world was mown, 
Out of your world, I was thrown, 
Better than seeing you with someone unknown, 
To the sky, we be flown, 
Why, when you see me you groan? 
Without you I will die, I am so prone, 
To your sight, & you are grown, 
None of your qualities are in need to hone, 
In anguish & helpless, I moan, 
When anyone else hears your sweet tone, 
The whole of me, you own, 
This by the world is known, 
One day you will be gone, 
Then again that will be end of dawn, 
Be with me, forget what I have done, 
Make a laughter, from your frown, 
The day is so much lovely and brown, 
I wish from being unreachable, to me you would come down.

Everyone Is studying

All are reading something, 
I am reading nothing, 
Just writing poems for you, 
For no one else, only for you, 
The urge to scribble comes from inside, 
I keep all other things beside, 
So instead of studying hard, 
I sit & play card, 
I can study if I want to, 
But I choose to see you, 
I do not care what others do, 
Only about what you do, 
All the books are useless, 
I must throw them unless, 
They can win your heart, 
I have loved you since birth, 
You do not need to study, 
Because you were very steady, 
Whole of the year, 
So you have no need to fear, 
But I have reasons of my own, 
Which are not unknown, 
All are prepared for the test, 
I keep sitting & hope for the best.

Everywhere I go

I go to school, I go to house, 
But Alas! There's no spouse, 
Waiting eagerly for me, 
To serve me some tea, 
I go to swim, I go to study, 
But after my day when I am muddy, 
There's no one for me, 
To ask me how I hurt myself so badly, 
Everywhere I go, I miss your essence, 
Sometimes I think, what nonsense? 
Then you come again in my dream, 
Hindering all my thought's stream, 
At every place, I wish your feet to be with me, 
And spend time with you, very skillfully, 
Your smell mesmerizes me so, 
That endlessly in your love I begin to flow, 
Without any direction, I wonder through all day, 
In my mind, you always stay, 
Following me in all circumstance, 
You play with me, so many pranks, 
I look at the sky, & with a sigh, 
Wondering when you will be mine.