Anymore the Same Insane

The days I remembered golden and gory,
When I used to share many a heartbreak story,
Oblivious to the wrying being unfolded hoary,
When that brilliant banal fool I was made to unglory.

It had begun with a sudden conscious stroke,
Ma(r)king me the fairy tale rich broke,
But forgiving even a even valedictory poke,
Receded away in jiffies, lost in time's spoke.



What changed, I talk to me,
That I stopped savouring my sorrow and glee,
Overnight, turned from fair to foul,
Freed from the joys of pain drenching my soul?



It's good I feel, it's lethal I know,
The solution to this contrary how to endow?
Forget the past, what it bestow?
Portals myriads, now so eager to go unslow.


Or do I change but remain with time,
Following the same lovely dorky rhyme,
The way as has been of my life of crime,
Allowing the odd one a chance to shine?



Answers I can if tried conceive,
Defeating the purpose of puzzling this sieve,
And knowing  this one has more reasons for you to grieve,
Being of chaos, leaving unsung I now take leave.