The Name

Mistakes on my part are none but few,
Although they always keep on appearing anew,
Having broken my heart again & again,
And keeping me in your memories but in vain,
Swiftly taking all my peace away,
Where they go I don't know even today,
Eagerly I try to amend them every time,
To undo their harm, and to make you mine,
As I love you more than the world can know,
Cheering with you to any place I may go,
Having you by my side, I can make every impossible possible,
As long as the distance from you can keep me sane,
Tomorrow what happens, I will never care,
Trust me, if you by me will always be there,
Eerie they seem, the nights that are dark,
Reaping inside them secrets, who knows what in them lurk,
Jeer they a lot, making me insane,
Every time I feel I may never see you again,
Each day passes, making your absence more grave,
I deceit you not, please don't think me as knave,
Leaving you I can never actually live,
Over & over, I want you to forgive,
Vast is my heart, deeper than the sea,
Easily so my feelings, you can no doubt see,
You don't know why I wrote this for you right?
Of course, these types of poems came never in your sight,
Until this moment, when you will finally know,
That this is just the beginning, and the ending of all the sorrow.

Returning From The Crossing

I never thought life would turn around,
To face the one I thought had left long ago,
To see you who brought me the feeling of first love around,
When we had been together for a short time, very long ago...

I had cherished the time spent with you each day,
Sitting with you for hours that passed too quickly,
Until our paths diverged and took us away,
And we too followed them quite blindly...

Today after so many years when we met,
It felt too good to be true again,
And no wonder my eyes got so wet,
As tears flowed abounter than the rain...

I lived again, although had been breathing for long,
The gaps of all the time closing in moments but a few,
I at last reckoned that I had been wrong,
I lamented that I should have always expressed my love to you...

I couldn't believe our lives had crossed this way,
And can't believe it till this moment too,
That when I said too you what I had always wanted to say,
You said you had always wanted to say that too...

I want to leave this crossing today,
Leaving you so that I could get back to the past,
So that I wouldn't have to leave you anyway,
Then today would never arrive so fast...

I really wish to return to those days again,

When our paths shared the same lane,

The time when there was happiness and no pain,

But I can't, and now nothing but memories remain...

Awaited Fulfillments

I think, I live, but I would love to die,
I know it's tough, but I still want to try,
To see if the essence of life is sweeter than death,
To realize my soul of what lies underneath...

I think, I live, but I want to know,
What lies in the realms of the hidden tomorrow,
To see if there is any way to unfold the secrets before my fall,
And change what would come so that it may not come at all...

I think, I live, wishing as moments pass,
If I could only rewind what has happened alas,
To see if some things in life would have turned another way,
And be different from what they are now today...

I think, I live, for I can bear no more,
The burdens of joy, the sorrows of hope,
Just to see if I can stay breathing today,
I continue to live for yet another day...

But soon my friends, the time will come,
Although it may seem forever to some,
When in your midst I will remain no more,
And would never return, however you encore...

So be the one who stands by all,
Friend or foe, large or small,
And let the whole world cry when you die,
Like the way they rejoiced when you were born...

The End

I always hoped for something to be good,
When I knew hope I never should,
But in the end, everything will be alright,
Was all my heart said to my mind all night,
When it kept thinking of her in its lonely ways,
For God knows so how many days.

But in the end, it didn't turn out to be alright,
All I got was a reason to pity my plight,
When I realized she could never be mine,
Like a sun on my cold life she would never shine,
She only said a few words to me,
Which changed the face of my whole destiny.

What she said was neither too bad,
Nor, obviously, I was too glad,
She was just as indifferent as she could be,
All she said was that she would never love me,
As coolly and calmly as one could be,
Because she never saw the fire she ignited in me.

It was the end, I could clearly see,
Not only of my love, but the end of me,
Now I am just nothing just a breathing corpse,
Unable to do anything in the world but remorse,
But still somewhere around a new hopes lay,
That I will live again one bright day.

Till that day comes, I cease to live,
For all my life any happiness I couldn't give,
Not just to anyone else, not to even me,
My life feels depleted and devastated so dimly,
I can never stand again until I can love again,
I just lie here with my eternal pain.

The Truth

The truth should have dawned upon me long ago,
Having realized this now will make me always know,
And bear the fact in my mind that wherever I may fall,
None else but me will have to be responsible for it all,
Kneading with all my soul I have been cherishing my love,
Showing how much proud I was to share with all my love,
And now I have got no more glee within me,
Love has finally shown me my disdainful destiny,
Of sorrow, of gloom and of an ignominious darkness,
Tomorrow I know will be even more hopeless,
Really because, my love, I have always been a little careless,
And sure enough, my life too has got reckless,
Crying now I can see that in my life nothing matters,
Heartless in this vast meadow my soul lies in tatters,
In the nocturnal beauty of my ardours dilapidated,
Truth has now accordingly everything stated,
As cruelly as it can, it has had me devastated,
And now will remain nothing but my penance with me & my life together,
For eternity, I will lie in this dark valley, crying forever.

Soulless

The day I I finally came,
Was like the very day or maybe the same,
When I had to go away lonely,
Without any prologue just so suddenly,
I can now feel the power surging, binded for years within me,
The strength rising steadily, a water drop turning into sea,
Gradually it unfolds like a bouldered path under the sun,
But it does so, and that's enough for me to want,
As I had tried hard to let go yet clutched the soul like a prey,
For I had lost my soul when you had gone away that day.

And destiny took its final toll on me,
If at all it could be called my destiny,
Because it was just me who had lost everything in the light,
And didn't even try to put up a good fight,
The water splurged, the earth erupted, and I was left desolate,
I felt myself being crumpled under my own weight,
In devastation burned everything, the remains unalterable forever,
Without you, since that moment I was able to live never,
Something beyond death happened to me on that day,
For I had lost my soul when you had gone away that day.

I awaited salvation, and have won it at last,
But don't know why my memories keep haunting me from the past,
Maybe I need something more than just freedom,
Something more than all the fortunes of the kingdom,
Something like my soul which I can find no more,
Finding which in a new rising I will really adore,
I wait, just wait for this eternal cycle to end,
And a new day a new beginning God will surely send,
Whence I shall realize a new kind of today,
For I had lost my soul when you had gone away that day .

Painless Pain

You play games with me,
And the toy is only me,
Making myself even more hurt than I can ever be,
You play games making a foolish game of me,
And I gladly pay you my servitude for life,
My master you are, binded I am by love,
My love, which you don't pay in return,
Keeping me indulged in the dramas of yours,
You hope to get rid of me soon enough,
But you don't know me neither my love,
Which will be around you forever,
The chaos within my heart is never healed,
You again and again bring back wounds new to me,
The pain of which makes me happy still,
For they are something you give from your heart,
At least I am worthy of your hatred,
If not worthy enough to be loved,
So I accept all you give with a smile,
Even if they rip my soul apart,
The lovely little lacerations caused in your lament,
Obviate all my distress in the hope of seeking you,
Which try vainly to choke me often,
Yet keep my heart beating endlessly,
The pain bestowed is a blessing from you,
And may god never give you such pain,
For one day I will take your leave forever,
Leaving an empty painless wound within your heart.