Dream 12th July

Yesterday I had an interesting dream. I dreamed that my college had reopened(it's opening on 21st), but only about 4 or 5 students of my class had come on the first day!!! And they too were whining about having to come. That's weird, because in reality most of the about 60 students in my class like to come regularly. Anyways, then I saw there was a test to be conducted a week after. Everyone got so tensed. It's a different feeling in your dream. You feel that you are flying, and there are no worries, even in the tensest of moments.But there was a good news. Students of Science courses had been exempted because there wasn't much time for us to prepare our syllabus. I was so happy.

Then my dream transitioned to a place near my old School, in front of Iskon Temple in Kailash Hills. I saw a group of bullies approaching me, and they tried to provoke me into a fight. But instead of being enraged, I tackled them diplomatically and made my way out. Pretty much consistent with my actual nature(hell yes, it was me dreaming right?). Then while walking, you know the feeling, flying away, and put on another place.

Well, after many many months, I saw someone in my dream, an old friend(:D :D you got it right). She was standing a bit distant. I could see her, but she couldn't see or hear me. So gloomily, I made my way back through a path which had sprang right next to me. And in the end of that was a nice cafe, with white tables and chairs, like in parks, outside, and near one of them was my friend standing, smiling to me. Then it all went black.

Then I woke up. An hour before.

The Unknown Feeling

I want to clear one thing first. This unknown feeling is no way about that damn love. I understand when I'm in love pretty well. So get rid of your misconceptions this moment only if you have.

Now, I don't really understand(obvious from the topic), I mean, I had had nothing to do much in these holidays, and so, as with everyone else, I did get bored. But simultaneously, I had some strange sensations. Something was changing. Some thingS were changing. I didn't understand what, haven't. But still, something is. Hope I will reveal myself to me soon. Till then, I am just left wondering, why I have been feeling so different these days??

A Note About Life

In this world, most of us care too much about too many things, uselessly. We think about people for whom we don't matter, we think about what others think although they aren't thinking about us at all, and we are always worrying about what happened and what may happen, forgetting the present. Instead of being practical, we think that we are the center of the universe & that everyone is completely obsessed with what we do & say. This is obviously not true, but we fail to understand that, mostly, believing that our lives of the past or future is worth more than the present. I don't know whether it is. And I don't even care, because we must always live in the present.

Lamenting about the past cannot change it. Instead, it helps us if we learn from past mistakes and don't repeat them again. Similarly, speculating wildly & illogically about the future is also isn't worth it, because what happens is bound to happen. Everything which happens in the future is a result of everything happened in the past or the present. The first thing, the past we simply can't change, fullstop. No use thinking about it anymore.

But the present is all upto us. And in the present also, there isn't many things under our control. You can't control whether it's going to rain today, can you?? But definitely the rain will affect the traffic to your work or college or school tomorrow. You understand what I'm getting at?? So, in the present too, the only things we can control is ourselves, namely, our Actions, Words, and Thoughts. These three things are the only responses that we can give to any situation, and when the response is right, the result desired is automatically got. For example, if it rains today, although you can't stop it, you can ensure that you have an umbrella if you go out today, and you leave the house earlier tomorrow in case the rain has lashed some trees on the roads or dug up some holes blocking the way. Whatever happens to you, therefore, is & will be the result of your own actions and words, so never blame others for anything.

We must always live according to what we want, not according to what others want, but sadly, very few of us actually do so. And if we make blunders or fail, the blame is also only on us. Not on God, not on our friends, not on our parents, just us. It's your life. You were in control. You messed up. But it's surely not the end. You can try again. You can succeed. Learn from your mistakes, learn from others, do it your ways, and see which method works to get your desired result. It's all in the hands of what you think, what you say, what you do.

But we have grown up believing that the world thinks about us, so we do things keeping the world in mind, keeping everything in mind, except ourselves, our gain, our loss, our practical aspect of any action. We seldom think before speaking or doing anything, which results in wrong actions, hurting ourselves and others. If you take care of yourself, everyone will be taken care of accordingly. So, don't worry about what others think & want. Worry about what you think & want. Take care of what you do carefully, for as they say, you take care of the small things, and the big things come into place themselves...

The Path To Heaven

The flowers aromatic immanent to the way,
And the trees swinging in the glittering ray,
And the sky so azure so more than the sea,
And the chirping birds soaring with glee,
Gives us joy for we are walking alone,
On the path to heaven, as we had come...

The pitch black sky and the nocturnal pale moon,
The fragile stars due to falter so soon,
As dawn breaks they will all say goodbye,
But the path to heaven, will still be alive...

We wonder its purpose, it carrying us today,
We wonder why it chose to be that way,
Because it knows not when its destiny may end,
But to be immortal it can't make any amend...

For eternity it has risen never to fall,
Carrying us through times big or small,
Scores of generations have surpassed the narrow strip,
But every man's count the heavens must keep,
Still unknown to all the way has a long way to go,
For we will be alive as long as we know...

The day may come when  it will be used no more,
Untrodden it will lie, in solitude & sore,
Full of pirate weeds in the pavements shining bright,
Long ago it will have lost all its might,
Its glamour will die, like we all are destined,
Ourselves to end, the way we were born...

?????

If you believed, you now know,
If not, then let me show,
That life is not what it always seems,
There are thousand faces of it, many unseen,
The mystery it contains is contained no more,
As soon as you see, that it's always worth an encore,
You may face troubles, you may be ragged,
You may be frightened, you may be sad,
But whatever you feel, just throw it away,
It may be dark today, but tomorrow is on it's way,
It has been for billions of years, but few have known so,
Others just let the days pass, ignorant pretending to know,
Fools they are, without a doubt,
For they haven't still got it, although it's just about,
Happiness lies just around the corner, but they say the world is round,
So happiness is a mirage, never really to be found,
Do you believe that they are right?
Or do you think, it's worth a fight,
To prove them wrong, show them you are happy,
To find that sweet bliss, in any place in any alley,
Life is for living, but you die everyday,
Is this why you were sent amongst the hay,
To share despondence & worry as you grow!
Or do you think you should do something more?
Rest I leave to you, for now I have to take leave,
But as I said, tomorrow, is yet another day to live...
Be happy everyone... :-)

Not So Lovely Life

P.S. Also read the first letter of each line...

Misty minglings within a meaningless world,
Yearnings endless and dreams unfurled,
Look up to the sky, what do you see?
Other than sorrows & miseries in your destiny?
Venting themselves through the rains from the cloud,
Ending the tryst of ages so proud,
In even thunders & roars deep within you can feel,
So many tears flowing with the water of steel,
Making your heart pierce with each blow,
You have lost that joy, which has ceased to glow,
Long ago, when you felt that love first time,
In your heart but it wasn't worth a dime,
Frail you lay now, waiting for the tomorrow,
Everyday still, you have to look back at the day,
Whether you are strong, you don't yet know,
Had you been, would you have let her go?
Inch by inch you wander around,
Covering your trails by your gloom profound,
Having faith still in the love you had shown,
If only you knew that it's essence would never be known,
So bleak and big this world is for all,
Obviously then no one cares for your fall,
Now get up and walk, for you have a long way to go,
Leave your sorrows, today by that meadow,
You can burn all, you can rise above the sky,
You can tear the bindings, yes you can fly,
Or will you prefer still to lay?
Uselessly waiting for her to come you way...

Nearer Than Me

We grow asunder day by day,
Never realizing the distance creeping it's way,
Your impalpable lucid eyes glitter impeccably ,
When I spuriously dream of you, night and day,
You gleam each night, in my dreams,
I try to reach you, just out of my way,
But you give a sly smile & run away,
Leaving me in my ignominious loneliness,
I try not go far, make the space ajar,
But all the time the separation so strong,
Making the meetings of moments & waits so long,
Lasting eternally in a span of a jiffy...


Longing never ends, once I believed,
But of that be'lie'f has only remained the lie,
I know now that the people in our hearts change,
That the love once evergreen does die & is born again,
I search everyday for such love,
And do end up falling in it too,
But truth is sure to dawn in the end,
That life in itself sometimes ceases to love you,
And you remain alone, writing like me,
Wishing that someday, you will read it too...


That day may bring you nearer to me,
Nearer to life, nearer than me,
I just pray to the almighty that I live to see that day,
When all will be lost & we will ignite into one,
The love will be impalpable, the lust so serene,
You will know someday maybe,
What to me you mean,
Till then for another day, I beg to take your leave,
Take care, oh my hearty soul, till I rise again tomorrow, only for you...